update...

so i guess you could say my week got a bit better... i went to a psychologist as you all know. Well she was a psychologist but she's not my therapist she was just doing the intake assessment. Long story short, she thought it was interesting that i couldn't say for 100% that i didn't take the money, she agrees that there probably is an underlying issue, she believes i've been screwed up sine i was 12 [can't say i don't agree], thinks the reason i can't have lasting relationships or really trust anyone is because i never learned how to because my rents were always at each others throat before they divorced [long story might tell you about it later], me isolating myself all the time is my survival mechanism and oh yea the kicker...... she believes i'm suffering from sever depression and that i fit not just a couple of the "tell signs" of bipolar but all of them. And they said people can't diagnose themselves... ha! well i have an appointment with my actual therapist next friday i believe, so at least i'm moving in the right direction with all of that and actually getting the help i need. :p
This to shall pass..... i've heard that from maybe 5 different people this week with everything going on and i gotta say something about it just resonates within me. Wierd how a few simple words can give you strength or change your perspective or just help keep your head up.
ok ok so you're all probably wondering about that modeling/acting thingamajig i was saying was a possibility the other day right? well i went and i got a second call back :p so that definitely a mood booster there but holy shit is it a funny story LMAO theey made us all walk on a t shaped runway type thing [they call it walking the T] and holy fuck fart was i waaaaaaay out of my comfort zone. I mean i have 0 interest in runway stuff and they were like nope at some point you will have to be up on one of these. So yea i did it and the lady was like pose... and i was all like .... ummm...how? lol it was so funny but i guess they liked me cuz i go back to the place today at 1130 so we'll see what they want to do with me since they said they were going to be making their cuts and calling people before today. oh yea, they love my hair lmao And for those of you worried about whether or not it's a real agency lol the name is "John Casablancas" apparently it's supposed to be some really good school/agency and they do a lot of *gasp* actual modeling lol so i dno maybe this is something i can be good at and get ahead with. Then you'd all see me whenever you wanted lol and be all like holy crap thats wyatt lol :p
lataz peeps